daydreaming in chem class

isn't it comforting to think that the person you're going to marry is walking this earth
RIGHT NOW?        
well, unless you're gonna marry a baby.
sometimes i see my future husband in my dreams. i call him Isaac. I don't know if that's his real name though. it could just be his dream name. But i know him. and when i see him, i'll know it's him.
i like to imagine we were constantly hanging out with each other in the pre-existence. i think that once i hang out with him here on earth, we'll kinda remember it.
it must have been sad to leave eachother. and that's why i screamed my head off as a baby.
my mom said i was the worst baby x)
hehe
i'm preparing myself for when i find him. i'm preparing to be the person he's looking for.
sometimes i wonder if he dreams of me, and he knows i exist.
sometimes i want to get on top of a mountain with a megaphone and just let him know, YEAH IM HERE, DONT WORRY!
i hope he's doing okay. i hope his life isn't tough. i hope he's happy.
i wonder what music he likes. haha i bet he likes the beatles. i wonder if we've ever listened to the same song at the same time.
it's far-fetched but hey.
let me dream.
i wonder what class he's in right now.
haha he's probably sitting in a classroom, bored like me. OR he's running around in a gym class. or maybe he's sick. or walking to his next class. but odds are he's in a boring class like me. which is comforting.
i guess this strange abstract person who's kept me company in my occasional dreams is hope. maybe he doesn't exsist. maybe im going to die or get eaten by zombies before i get married. maybe he's just the symbol of hope.
but i like thinking he's real. that there's someone out there, ready to accept me.
and it gives me a mission in life, to find him. he'll be a return missionary. and he'll be funny. and smart, slash nerdy. and he'll appreciate me.
and i cant wait to appreciate him. i cant wait to love him, cuz finally i'll be able to love someone with every ounce of annabelle i have, and i dont have to worry about him abandoning me.
and when i find him, we'll live far away. and we'll always have food storage ready.
i wish i could just skip ahead to when i find him, and when i can be happy. but i know i wont meet him until after highschool. and i need to prepare myself still. i need to make mistakes. date other people. learn how to kiss 0.o
haha
well, those are my thoughts on that.