usually when i feel lonely, i turn to jeremy for comfort when i'm alone, but he got a good job at a restaurant and works from 3 to 11, so i'm on my own now.
i guess this is good because if i pay too much attention to jeremy, he'll think i want more of a relationship than we already have. which is this odd lopsided friendship, where it hurts for me to talk to him and he still calls me beautiful sometimes.
it's kind of funny how we deal with being alone. i eat and read and write a lot more. and if my ipod's not constantly charged..i'm screwed. because being alone or bored without music in the backround, makes my brain fold in on itself. to the point where i get fidgety and irritated and i can't focus on anything.
other people (maybe healthier people) go and talk to friends and get connected with as many people as they can, and suck life from many different outlets, so that they don't have to feel alone. unfortunately, this usually ends up causing drama and contention and distress.
other people go out and look for love, and spend alot of time obsessing over someone they love from afar. in a blissful state that doesn't require much effort or heartache. unless that person decides to disappear.
screw talking about being lonely.
i'm going to go make some more animations and pretend i dont have a half an hour left before my dad takes us for the weekend.
i guess this is good because if i pay too much attention to jeremy, he'll think i want more of a relationship than we already have. which is this odd lopsided friendship, where it hurts for me to talk to him and he still calls me beautiful sometimes.
it's kind of funny how we deal with being alone. i eat and read and write a lot more. and if my ipod's not constantly charged..i'm screwed. because being alone or bored without music in the backround, makes my brain fold in on itself. to the point where i get fidgety and irritated and i can't focus on anything.
other people (maybe healthier people) go and talk to friends and get connected with as many people as they can, and suck life from many different outlets, so that they don't have to feel alone. unfortunately, this usually ends up causing drama and contention and distress.
other people go out and look for love, and spend alot of time obsessing over someone they love from afar. in a blissful state that doesn't require much effort or heartache. unless that person decides to disappear.
screw talking about being lonely.
i'm going to go make some more animations and pretend i dont have a half an hour left before my dad takes us for the weekend.
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