hi there.
why am i still so depressed? it sucks. and my moms always in a bad mood which makes the siblings all anxious and soon my whole house just turns into a giant frying pan of hell.
i've found nothing to do, so last night i went on fastpass.tv and started watching episode after episode of "pretty little liars" i'm sorry to say that it's actually not that bad.
unfortunately i still have loads of PLATO to do. one long chemistry one, adn then a couple geometry ones. and my bran is not happy to hear this. come to think of it, chem and geometry are the only classes i actually have to stay awake in because of the math. i suck at math, which is why im not in Pre-Ap algebra 2 or at least pre-Ap geometry. it's cuz im stupid when it comes to numbers. i'm okay with the formulas and equations ut i often make small mistakes within my multiplication and division or the teacher isn't explaining the steps. for me, math is like a dense jungle.
i like writing and language classes better.
besides chem and geometry, i have a couple art classes, english, and german. those are nice. german class is easy because i dont have to do any homework, my english teacher likes me, and im pretty good at art by myself so i don't have to do anything all day.
im angry at this town.
im so sick of living here. i'm sick of living in this state. i'm sick of the people around me, too. (for the most part. i think if you're reading this, you're safe)
the problem is that this town is so small, nothing ever changes or happens at all. the past is still hanging in the air around us making the future seem like it doesn't exist. i hate that the weather is only enjoyable for a few weeks between the see-your-breath months and the boil-your-skin months. i hate that i can't get away form anything.
around this time of year, after winter ends and before summer settles in my rain goes haywire. what can i do to escape? how can i out-run the sun? how am i going to get through another sweltering summer? what's the point of doing this all over again? can i run away? if i run away will i just end up homeless in the above 100 degree heat? how long do i have to stay here before i go insane?
i get this weird itch somewhere inside me that i have to LEAVE. i have to GET OUT OF HERE. and i'm tired of brushing that aside. i wish i at least had a car to escape in.
my plan was to collect a good amount of money so i could take a bus to the airport and then leave form there. for a while i wanted to go to san fransisco and jump off the golden gate bridge. it was kind of a sick dream of mine. now i have no idea. i feel like i live in a snow globe, sometimes.
and it's tiring to sugarcoat everything all the time.
ugh. i hate tuesdays. mutual. i have to leave in about a half hour.
im done talking.
why am i still so depressed? it sucks. and my moms always in a bad mood which makes the siblings all anxious and soon my whole house just turns into a giant frying pan of hell.
i've found nothing to do, so last night i went on fastpass.tv and started watching episode after episode of "pretty little liars" i'm sorry to say that it's actually not that bad.
unfortunately i still have loads of PLATO to do. one long chemistry one, adn then a couple geometry ones. and my bran is not happy to hear this. come to think of it, chem and geometry are the only classes i actually have to stay awake in because of the math. i suck at math, which is why im not in Pre-Ap algebra 2 or at least pre-Ap geometry. it's cuz im stupid when it comes to numbers. i'm okay with the formulas and equations ut i often make small mistakes within my multiplication and division or the teacher isn't explaining the steps. for me, math is like a dense jungle.
i like writing and language classes better.
besides chem and geometry, i have a couple art classes, english, and german. those are nice. german class is easy because i dont have to do any homework, my english teacher likes me, and im pretty good at art by myself so i don't have to do anything all day.
im angry at this town.
im so sick of living here. i'm sick of living in this state. i'm sick of the people around me, too. (for the most part. i think if you're reading this, you're safe)
the problem is that this town is so small, nothing ever changes or happens at all. the past is still hanging in the air around us making the future seem like it doesn't exist. i hate that the weather is only enjoyable for a few weeks between the see-your-breath months and the boil-your-skin months. i hate that i can't get away form anything.
around this time of year, after winter ends and before summer settles in my rain goes haywire. what can i do to escape? how can i out-run the sun? how am i going to get through another sweltering summer? what's the point of doing this all over again? can i run away? if i run away will i just end up homeless in the above 100 degree heat? how long do i have to stay here before i go insane?
i get this weird itch somewhere inside me that i have to LEAVE. i have to GET OUT OF HERE. and i'm tired of brushing that aside. i wish i at least had a car to escape in.
my plan was to collect a good amount of money so i could take a bus to the airport and then leave form there. for a while i wanted to go to san fransisco and jump off the golden gate bridge. it was kind of a sick dream of mine. now i have no idea. i feel like i live in a snow globe, sometimes.
and it's tiring to sugarcoat everything all the time.
ugh. i hate tuesdays. mutual. i have to leave in about a half hour.
im done talking.
we'll run away to missouri. zion: prepare.
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