monday morning. woo.

what do most people do to cheer up? listen to upbeat music? hang out with friends? eat? read? soak in a good movie? vent?

DONE.

listened to my ipod non-stop. (avoiding all the depressing songs)

ate stake and cheese potatoes HELLO

watched scream (edited for tv) oh yeahhhh

finished my book. awesome ending! (even though i've read it like 3 times already)

i didn't really hang out with anyone, but i did talk to jeremy non-stop this weekend. so it's a double whammy. he lets me vent for hours and always makes me feel on top of the world afterwords, so heh. yeah.

SO ANNABELLE, you ask, why do you still feel as empty as a Halloween jack o lantern??

WELL, i answer, nice analogy. and i dont know.

i need a smack in the face.

i wish i could find that thing inside of me.that thing that's burrowed deep inside me, attaching itself to me like a barnacle. i need to find it and scrape it out.

i should take more walks. it's supposed to be cloudy this week! that'll be nice.

i think i need to run away. that's what i need to do. i need to be like margo in paper towns. i need to find some money and get a plane ticket to jackson county and help all the old people with their farming.

i need to get as far away as here as i possible can. far away from echalk, from poston, form san tan, form arizona...from my family! and friends! (again, if you're reading this you're exempt from these sort of things) i need to friggen skip town.

you ever get that feeling? that butterfly-in-your-chest-twitch-in-your-feet-sweaty-palms sort of sensation while your mind is just screaming GO!!! GO!!!!!

ARGH.

it's so frustrating. i dont know the first thing about travel. i don't know how to get anywhere. and i'd look as forlorn as a baby deer lost by a highway. i dont really know anyone in jackson county, anyways. i'd have to hide out in a barn or something because i have no money for a hotel, let alone a house.

maybe i could earn board and keep with an old couple-

am i really thinking about this?! i need to stay here and finish highschool so i can get a read job. maybe go to art school.

annnnnnn' brain has officially shut down. if i think too much about plans, i just say SCREW IT. WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.

in other news, my house smells like bleach! Yay!

my 16th birthday is on a sunday. this upsets jeremy. he's determined to ask me out.

hah. ah jeremy.jeremy's really amazing. i wish he was at least mormon. then maybe iwouldn't feel so heartbroken by how sweet he is to me.

you know next january has a friday the thirteenth? if a month begins on a sunday there will always be a friday the thirteenth.

usually my friday the thirteenths turn out to be lucky. like i got a good lunch. or i got out of going to a dumb birthday party.

i don't like having birthday parties. it's kinda embarrassing, for me at least. i hate attention. and really? a party, celebrating that im alive? no. im not feelin' it.

man, i love pizza.

so i picked a sigur ros song for you guys today. if you haven't heard of sigur ros until now, i have jsut introduced you to a life-altering band.

and if you like them, check out the jonsi's songs. (jonsi's the lead singer)

KAY. I'M GONNA GO. kill myself. i mean, kill everyone. i mean, kill oats class. i mean...

bless your face.

if you sneezed at all during the weekend

BLESS YOU.

peace off.

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