hey.

with everything you're given, comes disappointment. no matter how fantastic it is or seems, there's always some part of you that knew it could have been slightly better.
don't deny it. it's not pessimism, it's letting your imagination take it's toll.
but it's better to accept this than pretend you didn't notice it. especially once you get into a relationship. they may say they love you, but that doesn't satisfy some people. some people don't like it to be said at all, some people need to hear it constantly. whatever the case is, make sure you tell this to the person you're with.
actually, make sure you flat out tell them ALL your expectations and demands and requirements at the beginning. lay out what you think the relationship will be like, how close you're willing to get with them, and how you'd like it to end. if this talk and decision making is awkward, you've set yourself up for a lamesauce relationship.
if the person you're with isn't the amazing awesome superhero you've cut them out to be, don't flip out. it's critical to be flexible, and not care when they're not as cute as they can be. this happens with everyone, no matter their cuteness level.
also, if you want to break the girl stereotype, go ahead and NOT get mad at everything they do. there are going to be times when you feel less lovey towards them, but that means you should go vent to the blog or a random word document mmmmmmmKAY? you should be the most chill person in a relationship ever. just be careful that you don't stop caring, because they'll get bored and cheat on you, and that's just...not...good. so. yeah.
just thought i'd post this for future references, to anyone and me beginning a relationship.