i'll still be here, waiting on the breeze

i did all my homwork. ima try to turn it in to turnitin.com tonight just to show mr. bailey how cool i am.
but then again turnitin.com never works for me. adn i barely have internet as is.
my dad's rental is right next to kyra's house. (pronounced ki-ruh). i think im stealing her wifi.
thanks kyra. haha
ahhh....
im sad.
i don't want ot go back to my mom's house.
i hate being here at this rental.
im too sad to get off the floor and get itno my bed.
im too sad to be scared of the dark.
too sad to sleep or go to school.
i really dont want to go to school tomorrow. i did all my homework and everything. i just feel empty and numb. i've been feeling this way all week.
but the songs of the day are progressively getting sadder.
april first makes me sad.

i wrote this during lunch today..i dont know how i feel about writing it:

a sick
strange
darkness
creeps over me
everytime i miss you.
it haunts me as i count
the spiderwebs
who's owners
have caught things and
eat their insides.
the same way
the indecision to call you up
eats
me
alive.
i wish
youd stop me
from feeling
this way.


sound familiar? i know. be dissapointed in me.
the book i was reading in class is called "one of those hideous books where the mother dies" by sonya sones.

too sad for even a boop that signifies the ending.