people. livin' just to FIND EMOTION

it's a half day. HALLELUJAH! thank you spirit world!
i turned in my thing for the art show. my art teacher really liked it. my art teacher intimidates me, but when he's nice, it's nice.
the girl across from me has professional markers that make her drawings look like they were printed out, she's very good. very admirable.
haha i like sketching and being abstract rather than being precise. well, i can be precise sometimes too. my mind's just to scattered to stick to one form of art.
i like gilbert, i'm so glad i have him in my life.  he's so nice and frekkn SMART, too. colleges across the world want him. i sometimes forget how great it is to hang out with him, until after ceramics class when i kinda miss him until lunch. agh. he's such a great companion. and his ideals aren't screwed up in anyway. he's not the typical highschool dude. he care about his future, he's responsible and practical and thinks about what he does.
after all these jerkfaces with their phony "live in the moment" attitude that get them only so far.
after gilbert gets all rich, the world will realize how handsome he is and he'll buy a huge house somewhere far from arizona, and he'll probably invent something we'll all need someday. and to think, i used to sit next to him and make dumb ceramic top hats, and obsess over fedoras! dude. i saw harry potter with him. he even changed the backround on my computer! :D
whoa!!
okay, wait. am i swooning over the future gilbert? hah.
when i was saying my prayers last night, i realized i pray for alot of people. i pray for all my friends, i feel guilty if i leave anyone out. also, my teachers and my mom in her room and my dad down the road. and my friend's parents.and then i pray for the boys in my life. because they need alot of help. and udi. i pray for udi  A LOT. i pray for kaleb too. and gilbert. and jeremy. i pray for jeremy alot, but not as much as i do for udi.
sometimes, i think udi is so close to being happy. so close..but i think depression gives you this weird, mega-focused perspective that's easy to dwell in, even if it hurts. and it's easier to stay in there than to get out and be happy. but i dunno, i feel like he's just so close to finding something to make him happy.
i liek seeing udi laugh and smile. it's like entertaining a baby. i hope udi can find someone or something to make him smile all the time. especially because he's moving to utah.
i pray for jeremy because he needs to be more mature and serious if he's gonna survive in the outside world. and i know it's a long shot, but maybe i can influence him enough to check out the church.
and maybe then things can at least end smoother.
i pray for kaleb because i know he's a spiritual person and he's filled with good. he's a good person. but he follows the wrong people. and i pray for him because i don't want him to find himself unhappy.
i also pray for shyloh, i want her to be happy and be able to see what kaleb needs.and i don't want her to feel empty or alone.
if i pray for all these people, i don't need to ask God for help in my life, because as long as these peeps are happy, i'm at least content.
school. i hate you.
bleh.
wait
YESS HALFDAY!! YEAHHH!!!
okay. i should go.